I have been spending too much time with House M.D. The series to me is interesting because I can relate myself to it. I am more like Dr. Gregory House and Dr. James Wilson combined together. My friends who knew me knows how sarcastic I can get when it comes to giving comment but I do believe that giving blatantly truthful comments are much more better than lying to your own friends. I hate hypocrisy and I will not tolerate people behaving as such although I do understand you can never run away from being a hypocrite. I however will try my best to reduce behaving that way.
Dr. James Wilson reminds me much of my good side. He pitied and get fooled easily by the kindness of the people around him. Rather naive I must say and that is who I am. I trust people easily and that is an attribute that makes me cry often. I know to most of us, crying is not a bad thing but being hurt by the people who you love is something more painful than being punched in the stomach. If you punch people you can actually feel the pain but when you get hurt it is a pain you can never see but you can actually feel it. The only similarity of those two comparison is that both of them will be heal in time only the former takes time even years to recover.
Two days ago, I watched the season finale of House season 4. Dr. James Wilson girlfriend, Amber died in the episode and for the first time I saw humanity in Dr. House. He felt guilty for Amber’s death but being Dr. House he could not express it well. It reminds me of how I deal my latest sadness in my life. When I heard the news I could not cry. I tried to because I know it makes me feel better but somehow I could not do it. There is some part of me who did not want me to feel better thus I became a mess. Being in a state of depression, I slept for a few hours to wash away the sadness. It worked but obviously not for long.
It was rather a sweet episode really even though it ends with death. I saw how much Dr. James loved Amber. Even saying goodbye to Amber made him cry beforehand and he accompanied her until he switched off her life support. Even the people whom she was competing with came to see her to wish her goodbye. I believe that death really makes people put behind their past and forgive one and another. The ending of the season finale was a good one I must say, showing three different images of three different people. One was Taub who went home and went straight to the bed to sleep with his wife already sleeping on the bed. Second was Kutner who spent the rest of the night watching tv probably his favourite movie or series. The third which was the moving of all was Dr. Foreman who spent time with his friends, Dr Cameroon and Dr. Chase. We all deal our grieves in a lot of ways but friends are always there to cheer us on. They are the ones who make us keep moving and until now I cannot give enough gratitude to my friends who helped me through the journey so far.