Dear diary, I could not be more wrong. I thought I could smile, nod my way
through it, pretend it will be all be okay. I had a plan. I wanted to change who
I was. Played a life with someone new, someone without the past, without the
pain, someone to laugh. But it is not that easy, the bad things stay with you.
They followed you. You cannot escape them as much as you want to. All you can do
is regreted it for the good so when it comes you invited it in because you need
it, I need it. Quoted from The Vampire Diaries Episode 1

Well, first of all, I know some of the words do not make sense but I tried my best to hear and write what Stephen and Eliana said in the series. Anyways, most imporantly, I do understand what they want to talk about. Everyone has a past and you cannot run from it as much as you try. On top of it all, the past shaped who you are now. Humans learn a lot by making mistakes because they usually learn from it. However, not all humans try to take their past as a lesson learnt and keep repeating the same mistake over and over again. Well, I guess maybe I was one of them. You know someties I wish things will not end the same. This is my weakness, I believe in the good side of people. I did not think it over and decided to follow my heart and it became a big mistake. Anyways, I want to start afresh. Time will heal everything and I am giving myself time to recover.